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.Thursday, 10 December 2009@22:57.

* dis is a quite long post...i wrote a summary for wat i have done during dis few days..(=..

1oth Dec ..Thurs

went to jurong east to find yy..
cause her dad jus rent a store at a coffee shop near there..(=..
quite far from mrt station..reached there her dad cook hokkien mee for me..
very nice ! haha..den i and yy go first..took bus and took lrt to my hse there de playground..
help yy to do her nail..cause i do my nail MYSELF few days ago..quite nice..
so yy ask me to help her..haha..ITS DAMN NICE OK?!..
she oso like it very much i think(=..
she said i can open a manicure shop to earn money le..hehe..
ya lo ya lo ! i cut my hair MYSELF..(nt only te fringe hor)..
den do my nails MYSELF...wah..im so li hai lei !!!!><..hehe =p
after do her nail we went to lot walk walk..eat...den walk to south view..
sit at te bus stop chit chat..we laugh alot la..feel i gt a sense of humor !!..
our conversation very funny..haha..waited for 4 buses..den she went home..

my nail..hehe..i paint myself lei ..still draw ribbon on it somemore lei..haha

5th Dec ...Sat

VERY FUN TAT DAY!!
haha..went out wif my parents..and te couple in our hse..(=..
te couple jus bought a car so we all take te car and go out play..
cause we bought hse at YEW TEE blk 704 le..
so we go see de company for designing room de places at jurong east there..
den went to My NEW HSE to signed te contract
and give te first time money to te agent and hse owner..
come out from 704.. went to IKEA at queenstown..
decide wat funiture to buy so next time when wan move in le can jus come and buy..
after tat is abt 7+..we all dunwan go home..
my dad suggest go kallang eat steamboat
since we need to celebrate tat we bought our NEW HSE and give te first time money today..
so went to kallang eat another shop steamboat..
quite nice too ! next time can try there again..

another steamboat at kallang..

show rooms at te designing shop..

2nd Dec.. wed

meet yy..shaowei..wilson go causeway watch movie..

i wanted to watch HuaMulan..bt sw say he waited for te "chrismas carol"for a long time le..

so i say ok lor..den we watch chrismas carol..i dunno wat is it abt so jus watch ..

den go in realise te show very scary lei !!! >,<

i HATE horror movies..and i never watch horror movie one lei..

i still ask sw wat is te show abt before we go in..

he only sae"abt one old man lo"..=_=if i noe i sure wunt watch one..

bt dis time being cheated by sw la !>,<

te ghost come out i shocked den scream..bt yy..wilson..sw all still laugh at it lei..LOL..
k..no next time..i will never watch horror movie again..

after tat we go lot eat..chat..den walk to south view lrt and went home..

30th Nov... Mon

meet wanyin and adi go ecp for class bbq..

nt alot ppl go..nt very fun for me...mr liew and mr tan came too..

chit chat wif adi..wy..eileen..mr tan...they talk abt ghost stories..

make me dun dare to go home>,<

adi dad fetch me ..wy..adi and we go eat ..den go home..

28th Nov 09 ...Sat

went to Victoria concert hall wif Brenda..shuxian..deyao..

to watch Mr Lee (my cello teacher) concert..

ppl give him flower and den he dunwan so gave it to me..haha

we like tourist keep taking photos..haha..

i and Mr lee..

i and brenda

26th Nov 09

went ktv wif liyeng and yy..

cause lesser ppl so sing alot..haha..

like to wrote poems more than wrote dairy here..

so jus wrote one post here for some of te places i go during dis few days..

will update more if there's more fun events or outting..(=..

Manke..(=

.@20:21.

讨厌自己.. 总是明明想联系对方..却总是等着别人联系自己..拉不下脸来联系别人...被动

讨厌自己..放假了那么久..明明决定第二天写作业..却每次以等一下为借口越拖越久..之后就不了了之了.一天过去了才又气自己再次没写作业..就这样每天循环...

讨厌自己..明明饿了...却因为懒得下楼买饭吃..宁可就那么饿着..

讨厌自己..爱要求自己...却总是要求了做不到...

讨厌自己..很容易被动摇...心软....

讨厌自己..总是多管闲事..最后把自己陷进去...

讨厌自己..总是在犹豫..(买史迪奇吧..[可是猪很可爱]..那就买猪吧...[可是那个是史迪奇哎]=_=.)就这样循环着....

讨厌自己..总是怕寂寞..总是担心剩自己一个

讨厌自己..总为别人考虑..(出国时..[这个买给***..这个买给***..]到头来回家自己什么都没买..才又后悔)

讨厌自己..没主见..老是要别人做决定..但别人决定了自己又不喜欢
(去哪里啊?..[我随便哪里都行]..那逛街吧..[很累啊]..那ktv...[没钱]...那你说哪里嘛..[我随便哪里都行]%&%￥@@￥%……）

讨厌自己..不知道怎么拒绝..明明不喜欢..却总是逃避而不去面对...

讨厌自己..常常为做过的事后悔 (早知道就不去了! 早知道就应该吃了才出来..早知道...早知道... %^^$@@& )

讨厌自己..总是被骗 (你看后面.. [*转头*什么？]...哈哈被骗了..过了一会儿..[你看你后面那人是不是***...[*又转头*哪里哪里？？]....又被骗=_=)

每个人在生活当中总会经历很多事情...没有谁是完美的..或许这是我应该学习的吧..
我其实没有资格去评论一个人的好坏..好朋友也一样...
不想再去管别人的事..因为是他们自己的选择..路是他们自己选的..我无法干涉..
不然到头来自己变成狗咬吕洞宾...我好累..不想在最后一年弄得那么尴尬..
可以做的只有forgive and forget...或是自己骗自己说..
可能那只是一个人成长中会选择错的其中一件事..可能那本就是她的性格...就忘了吧....

.Friday, 4 December 2009@22:27.

可不可以有个人可以看穿我的逞强..保护我的脆弱
可不可以有个人在我说「我没事啦」的时候，知道我其实不是没事..只是假装坚强...
可不可以有个人在我的眼泪掉下时..紧紧抱着我让我眼泪鼻涕全部擦在他身上..
可不可以有个人在我受到委屈的时候把我的头按在他的肩膀上.. 然后抚着我的头发说没关系就算所有的人都不相信你你都还有我。
可不可以有个人霸道的对我说，我认定你了。你就是我一个人的我不许别人走近你
可不可以有个人支持我减肥却依然带我去买很多好吃的然后说吃吧不管你多胖我都要你
可不可以有个人在过马路的时候牵着我的手对我说 [跟着我走]
可不可以有个人在我生气的时候耐心的哄我开心着然后故意逗我开心说你生气的样子好丑
可不可以有个人在每晚睡觉前跟我说晚安，要梦到我啊

可是..这是不可能的..=_=...

.Monday, 23 November 2009@09:29.

YO! im back from Zoo and bbq( X= )..
ytd went to zoo wif crystal ..nisha..michelle(nisha friend.) ..
bt we only walk 1/4 of te zoo..and only watched te elephant show..
Oh ya !..the fair quite funny..HAHA..theres alot of games for kids..
while watching..we were laughing like mad ok?! ..damn funny..
bt we need to sit on te carpet wif all te animal shit smell to eat KFC..>,<
around 4 we took bus to lot..michelle go meet her friends..
crystal and nisha go westmall buy things coz nisha today going OBS camp (=
den i take mrt to ecp for bbq..
k..i shall nt write abt this ..coz of some reasons..lol..abit lame =_=..
bt at ecp was fun ! except for the part im WET..>,<..is sooo uncomfortable..)=
and we cycle too (=.. haha..tat part very fun.. i keep laughing ..
coz i nearly make ppl gt heart attack.. =p..haha..
around 11+ den we leave ecp..>,<..is damn late ok?!..
no taxi...no MRT..we walk soooooo far to te bustop..
we thought tats no bus coming already ..
bt at te end THERES STILL ONE 67 !! heng arh..te last bus lei .>,<..
k ..reach home at 1am !!!! OMG !!..
k..i feel im bad la..come back home so late...hais..i feel i should nt go lei..
okok..no next time !!(=..ytd is like im a bad girl ..)=..
next time will come home early unless really no choice ! ..

ps: going out wif yy later (=
pss: Tue going out wif crystal (=

BTW !! i shall post all te photos we took at zoo when crystal send me ! (=

Manke ..(=

.Friday, 20 November 2009@21:55.

i do this photo(= is 2009 memories

.Thursday, 19 November 2009@18:43.

早晨我窝在被窝里..其实不想睡.. 只是贪恋着被子里的温暖罢了

或是.. 贪恋着那些美好而实现不了的梦..
深深的陷进梦里..久久不能自拔..

每次醒来..需要很久很久才能让大脑回到现实生活当中..
每次回来... 才发觉... 原来... 那是梦....

活的那么没有自我..那么颓废...
脑子一团糟..之后的我又坐在床边发呆...再一次忧伤

想起...

那些我想纳入生命中的人

当他们渐渐远离忘却我却还死命的记得

所有的对我的好 . 给我的感动 .放肆的欢笑

我突然那么深切的怀念起曾经的他了

就算是过去的一丝一毫都被我一点一点的记到心里去了

就算是我还是不会主动去联系任何一个人

哪怕是他们以为是我想先忘了

我就是这样

那些离开 .. 那些不舍.. 我都一个人接受了

于是 ..在长时间的矛盾. 纠缠之后.. 总会走出来

就像我说 .一切总是会好起来的一样

有些事 ..是事实 ..我也开始去承认了 ..

偶尔很累很累也不会去苦撑了

我依旧想他...想他.. 想他.. 他依旧不曾在乎我..不曾联络我..
只是想msn “蹬蹬噔”时..手机响起时 ..看到的他久违的名字、而已 ..

我依旧在乎他们..他们依旧不联络...
只是想让他们跟我对他们一样的在乎着我、而已...

我依旧喜欢紫色.. 那种忧郁.. 神秘的颜色
感觉心情想它一样..埋藏在心里的忧郁感..别人不会懂...

其实.. 现在的我.. 只不过是“美好而黑暗”罢了..
我依然期盼着...像花儿一样的幸福着..尽管它只是期盼..

.Sunday, 1 November 2009@09:57.

went to PTC on Fri..wif crystal and my mum..lol.

like crystal is my family member like tat..haha..

and guess wat?? i gt 49.8 overall..and its ok..

bt te problem is !! THEY COUNT MY MARKS WRONGLY !!! SO TATS WHY I FAIL !!

is actually my art gt 59% bt they write 20% !!!

so actually I DO NT NEED TO GO PTC DE !!!!!!!!>,<>

ya.so after te ptc den meet Wanyin Yuli they all..(=

my mum very funny tat day..i oso dunno why..like keep saying funny things..

make wanyin they all laugh..LOL..

den wait for crystal's dad to drive us to Orchid Country club..so my mum went home

went there bath..go sauna..HAHA..we all like all wrap by a towel only..LOL..shy shy..

den until 12+ at night we took shuttle bus to North point and wanna watch movie

bt there no cinema..so took cab to AMK..watch movie..bt i jus go in den starts to sleep le..

=_=..jus when te movie going to end..den i feel something keep hitting me

IS CRYSTAL ..WANYIN..YULI THEY 3 THROW POPCORN AT ME !!>,<

den still keep laughing..cause i sleeping..>,<..like waste money go watch lei..

going to finish te movie den i ask crystal wats te movie abt..LOL

ad guess who we saw..WE SAW ELEANOR AND GRACE..

is like so shock..cause is at AMK lei..somemore 2 am at night..

den we took cab back to OCC..i already damn tired la..

so we sleep at 3am..moring haven wake up den heard crystal 's sister shout

"s'pore idol "is outside .."..den crystal they all run out and see..

they dunno mus take wat photos at OCC bah..alot s'pore idiol there..LOL

they are jus outside in te swimming pool..they all so excited..

her sister still took photo wif te Amira??

i guess its her name..=_=..cause i neva watch so i duno..

den we go eat breakfast ..I SAW MY CELLO TEACHER AT THERE TOO !!..

we talk abit den we go le..play awhile den go swim..(=..

then a guy look so gay one come and

tell wanyin they all cnt wear clothes to go in te swimming pool..

cause they dint bring swimming costume so they wear PE T'shirt..den we so angry..

and guess wat ?? we ask crystal's sister go shoot him wif te WATER GUN !!!..hahahaha..

so funny !!!!!!!haha..after wards when sauna again..den bath..prepare go bbq..

den play awhile..take photos..until 8+pm me..wanyin..yuli take cab go home first..(=

btw..dis 2 day 1 night in OCC is really fun !!!..haha..

Manke